What Say You?

“Then Jesus said to his disciples, ‘If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it. What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world, yet forfeits his soul?'” Matthew 16:24-26 These particular verses come in the chapter where Jesus predicts his death to his disciples. He tells them of the exact events that will occur and is met with opposition. The one who is brave enough (or stupid enough) to question the happenings Christ just outlined is Peter. Surprised? You shouldn’t be because this is the guy who, ten chapters later in Matthew, confesses his love for Christ and then denies him three times. Did I mention he also cuts off the ear of one of the men who arrested Jesus? Peter is definitely a character. If you’ve walked the Christian road for any amount of time, the likelihood that you’ve heard a message preached on the verse above is great. Oftentimes we hear a message that exhorts us to rise above ourselves and live our lives to honor Christ with no regard for what we’ll receive. And we are told that when we take this path we will truly find life. I remember the fall of 1995 vividly. The San Antonio apartment where Chris and I resided was about 750 square feet. We spent a lot of time playing music together. We even wrote our first song there. A bigger event that transpired while we were living there was God’s calling on our lives to surrender. Surrender what, you might ask. Everything. And I didn’t know if I wanted to. Chris felt sure that we were called into full-time vocational ministry. I didn’t have a desire whatsoever to do that for a living. Volunteering was just fine with me. But, after wrestling with God about it for a few months, I eventually surrendered. And that was the beginning of me truly finding life. Travel ahead 8 years if you will and you’ll find me hearing from God yet again about the direction in my life. With my marriage absolutely on the rocks, I was and still am convinced that God called me to stay and work things out. That encouraged many and frightened plenty. I realize the ones who shared their concern were those who’d known me for some time and just wanted me to be okay. It might have seemed logical for me to save face and walk away from my marriage. But, I chose to follow God’s direction and literally lose my life. And again, I found it. During the last five years, I have had more life given to me by God than I could contain. Sometimes I just sit and think about how much I’ve been given. I have ample opportunities to fulfill God’s calling on my life as I help other women. We are very close to living in financial freedom. I can’t imagine my life getting any richer and fuller than it already is. But then God shows up and brings abundant joy and more blessings than I can comprehend. And I got all this because I lost the life I thought was amazing? Chalk that up to Isaiah 55:8-9. I don’t remember the exact day but God spoke profoundly to me. His voice was not audible but the message was indelibly written on my heart. I could not deny His still, small voice that day. I was praying and simply sitting in awe of the amazing life I live and asked, “Why me, Lord?” His reply was simple. Because you said yes. I sat upright and realized that back in 1995 I had a choice to make. I could have said no and kept the life I enjoyed. Or, I could have said yes and received a life that I never could have imagined. And occasionally still have to pinch myself to make sure this abundant life is real. It is. So, what say you? Yes or no? It’s that simple.

11 thoughts on “What Say You?”

  1. Mama Cindy… I am constantly in awe of the volumes God speaks through you. A mighty powerful woman He has made you to be and an incredibly loving one too!
    I’m so ready for the full life, God’s abundant life… so my answer to Him is yes…and to you is I’m ready!
    After chatting with you today, I had alot of thinking to do, so I thought…and I’m ready for that abundant life, without fear or regret, because as 1 John 4 says, “There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear…” I plan on blogging my thoughts and many lessons I’ve learned today…

  2. I really needed to read this at this point in my life. I didn’t want to, but I needed to. It’s been easy to say yes in he past, but for some reason, right now, I am really struggling with it. I’ve said it with my mouth. My heart is having a hard time following through.

  3. I’m so glad you said YES! Isn’t it a weird thought, to think what your life would be like if you had chosen another way? And man! Yesses seem so much harder than no’s, don’t they?

  4. Jes – Live it, sister!
    Robin S. – I know the whole “mouth can say, but heart can’t feel it routine”. Looking forward to Sunday.
    Robin M. – Right you are!
    Natalie – I appreciate you.

  5. I love your heart – your love for the Lord. How blessed you are that you know the Lord.

    My heart is heavy today because of the thousands of Invisible Children in America who will never have the opportunity you have had to know Jesus.

    If you are interested you can read of my encounter with some of these children yesterday at

    I hope this isn’t too brash but it is a call to the church.

    May the Lord continue to bless you.

  6. Yeskids and Sheri – Thank you SO much for your encouragement. It’s very timely. You have no idea how much I needed your words today.

  7. here’s something up close and personal I want you to take in. Chances are… had you not said yes, IIIIIII never would have said yes. Imagine… just for a minute… how different my life would be had I never heard your husbands witness on that stage and met one of my very best friends in a park shortly there after. I’m one of those people He used you to reach. He does it everyday with you. You’ll get notes like these for many years to come from people you don’t even know your ministering to. So I simply say, thank you Cindy Beall, for saying yes.

  8. Keri Austin – That touched me to a real deep place inside…real deep. Today has been a tough day for me emotionally but very good for me spiritually. Thank you for encouraging me.

  9. See? What Keri said is what your life is ALL about! God is using your redemption story in such a MIGHTY, MIGHTY way! It blesses me so much! And I’m hanging on to the hope that your dream WILL come true—it WILL happen—I just know it! In the meantime, keep living your life in that redemption story—-you’re touching more lives than you’ll ever know!

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