You can’t be about the Kingdom of God and have your own agenda.Gotta practice what I preach.
I’ve been on quite a quest these past few months. This quest has included many things. Honestly, too many to name. But the one that has my mind constantly going is the one where I am asking, “Is this for me?” Now, I’m not talking shopping or doing anything for myself in a material sense. Cuz, momma likes a new pair of shoes and trouser jeans from White House Black Market. Oh yes she does. I’m talking about the reason behind the things I do or say. Is it to get my idea out there? Or is it to show someone my intelligence because inside I feel incredibly inadequate? Is it to prove that I’m somebody who has something important to say? I guess you could call this quest of mine a Quest for Pure Motives. And I don’t always succeed. The moment I “fail” I know it. I’ve got this internal Holy Spirit alarm that says, “That was for your benefit.” I’m sure some of you think that my desire for this is a little over the top. That maybe I’m taking this whole “sanctification” process way too far. But I know that God is preparing Chris and me and our family for something. I just have no idea on earth what it is. So I press on in making sure that my life points to His life. I recently shared this quote with the women at the OKC Campus of LifeChurch.tv: