Marriage

Life After Porn – Part 3

My Word From God

I needed to hear from God. The state of confusion that I lived in at this point in my life was extremely overwhelming. Many wise people in my life were telling me that I didn’t have to make a decision right away, but I couldn’t live with that. Something was calling me to get some clarity. Noah and I journeyed six hours down I-35 to my childhood home in Georgetown, Texas. I needed someone to take care of us. That someone was my mom. Not only did she play with Noah, which allowed me time to myself, but she cooked for us and cleaned up after us and rented movies for us and took us to eat Mexican food. She’s a terrific mom. But, she also pestered me a little. She was insistent that I go meet with her pastor, Dan Wooldridge. Because I literally had no strength, I didn’t even put up a fight. I was surprised how comfortable I was in Dan’s presence. A true shepherd, he listened to my story and watched as tears streamed down my face. I practically begged him to tell me what he thought I should do. He did something better. Here’s what he said: “I would respect you if you felt that you needed to remove yourself from your marriage. What you’ve endured is very hard. But, you are not a fool to stay and be a part of the redemptive work in a man’s life.” I was and still am absolutely certain that these were the words coming my Heavenly Daddy disguised in a middle-aged Baptist minister’s voice. I knew it immediately. Nearly six years later and I still remember this quote from him…word for word. And I’m so glad my mother was a pest :)

12 thoughts on “Life After Porn – Part 3”

  1. ‘be part of the redemptive work’….wow, that really spoke to me this morning as I still have moments, not too often….but there all the same, that rear their ugly heads. I’ve read your story before, but am making a point of reading it again, and now I know why.

  2. this is my favorite part of your story! being encouraged to stay by a Godly man. being told that staying through restoration would definitely be harder…. but look at your rewards!

    i’ve read your story several times and also referred several friends to your sight who are in similar circumstances… this part of the story always gives me chills! 🙂

  3. I want you to remember that your story and your words have a deeper impact than you know….it’s not only the people with a similar story or who have gone through hard marriage struggles who will be affected.

    Your words are Truth! And Truth goes deep.

    Keep on preachin’ sister!! 🙂

  4. “I would respect you if you felt that you needed to remove yourself from your marriage. What you’ve endured is very hard. But, you are not a fool to stay and be a part of the redemptive work in a man’s life.”

    This is the part of Your story… that Gives me hope in mine.

    (I actually have this part in my computer in my documents and when things get tough in “my story” I re read that there is hope and standing by and praying for is not fruitless.)

  5. “But, you are not a fool to stay and be a part of the redemptive work in a man’s life.”

    Very powerful! Very wise!

  6. You are not a fool…I wish there had been someone with skin on to say those words to me. Fortunately my heavenly Father whispered them to me. I keep them handy so that I may offer them to someone else. Thanks.

  7. Powerful message! I was brought to your website and story through a Divorce Care group. So thankful God has led me to your story.

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