But I’m not. I did some video blogs about a year ago in regards to my overeating issues. I shared the enlightenment I received, how I lost weight and what I do maintain overeating sobriety. I did all of this after the hard stuff. After all of the humiliating and embarrassing realizations that God showed me and that I shared with those closest to me. Cuz y’all, it’s so much easier to talk about the stuff you struggle with when it doesn’t have you by the neck. Unfortunately, it has me by the neck again. Not everyday, but more days than I wish it did. There are days when I literally have no power over my flesh and I stop by the cookie place when I haven’t planned it into my eating plan. There are days when I put larger portions on my plate than my body really needs. There are days when I justify that I deserve something, which is what got me into this overeating mess in the first place. I’ve fluctuated in my weight by 6-8 pounds over the last six months. That may not be a big deal to many and quite frankly, it’s not a deal breaker for me either. But, I know what it means. It means that I’ve slacked off. If I were an alcohol addict, it would mean that I have taken a few drinks here and there. If I were a drug addict, it would mean that I shot up every so often. The good news for me is that food is my drug and not alcohol or meth or heroin or tobacco. The bad thing for me is that I can’t give up my drug. So this is me. Still on the journey. Still wishing it would all magically go away when I wake up tomorrow morning. I guess the difference this time is that I don’t throw in the towel and go back to my old ways completely. Baby steps, right?