I Don’t Have A File

I’m realizing every day just how many women need hope. I have spoken with numbers of women over the last 6 1/2 years about marriage issues and crises they are facing. So many so that I don’t even remember who they all are. And that can get embarrassing when you meet them face to face. I tell you that because a lot of these women are referred to me because they are now “going through” what I “went through”. So, I visit with these women, mostly on the phone, sometimes via email, occasionally in person, and try to help them make sense of something that is absolutely senseless. When someone brings up pornography or infidelity around these parts, a lot of my friends say, “You should talk to Cindy Beall.” Because you see, I have a file. My file is 6 1/2 years old. It’s got information in there that will make your head spin but will most certainly bring you unspeakable joy. My file is thick and gets thicker by the day with each story I hear and with each step I take. My file is a little tattered but is holding together fairly nicely because of the holy adhesive used to secure the frayed edges. I’ve got a file.   My all-time favorite Bible teacher, Beth Moore, was speaking one time about a situation in which she was asked to participate.  As she was preparing to go and minister, she told God, “But I don’t have a file on this!” Beth Moore had never walked the road of those to whom she was about to minister. She did not have a file. You may not have a file about something through which your best friend is enduring or what your child is experiencing or what your spouse is going through. But let me tell you what you do have. The Holy Spirit.
And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. Having believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God’s possession—to the praise of his glory. Eph. 1:13-14
If you are a Christ follower, you have the Holy Spirit inside of you ready and willing to lead you down the path that you don’t think you have any business traveling. Ephesians 5:18 tells us, “be filled with the Spirit.” As we yield our lives to Him and allow Him to come in, he will become our file. God allows us to use our past hurts to help others. But, don’t sell yourself short on how God can and will use you. And don’t forget, my fellow Christ follower, that according to 2 Peter 1:3, His divine power has given you everything you need for life and godliness. Last time I checked, everything meant everything. I’m just sayin’.

19 thoughts on “I Don’t Have A File”

  1. I’m 100% behind you on this one. We are called to use our experiences to help one another. Sometimes that is what makes the “experience” worthwhile!

    Thanks for the reminder!

  2. Thank you so much for the encouragement! My husband and I are getting ready to lead a group of youth on a 10-day missions trip (our first time taking a team by ourselves) and I just found out that we have to minister in two churches on Sunday. I really needed your reminder!


  3. Amen Sister. We never know how God will work through us until we pray the simple prayer “Use Me”.

    He will download the appropriate file.

  4. This is a really awesome word from God for me right now. As I journey towards writing a book that I know I have to write, I have to share, I am terrified of failing, rejection and just plain incompetence.

    I can do all things through Christ so thanks for reminding me of that.

  5. Honestly Cindy….

    There are days I wish I didn’t have a file.

    Then there are those beautiful moments over an email or a coffee where you scratch your head and say, God you gave little O’ me to help and minister and love on this beautiful woman.

    I walk away in awe…

    I have a drawer full of files, filed under GRACE.
    God rocks!!

    Awesome post!! Thank you!!

  6. Great reminder! I really have been encouraged by other people’s “files” but sometimes its easy to dismass those who haven’t “been there” despite the leading of the Holy Spirit. Thanks!!

  7. “If you are a Christ follower, you have the Holy Spirit inside of you ready and willing to lead you down the path that you don’t think you have any business traveling.”

    Amen, sister.

  8. I hope to someday help women thru my “file” also. Right now I am in the depths of despair and not there yet!!! Thank God for those who are helping me, as sometimes I think you have to have lived thru it to understand!!!!

  9. Cindy,

    I can speak from experience when I say that you are using your trials to bless others. I was one of the women who was told to talk to you during a particularly hard time in my marriage (you were so kind to speak to me WHILE ON VACATION!!! AAAAHHH!)

    Your words were such a comfort to me and for that I cannot thank you enough. I am writing my own file to minister to other couples. Some days I would like to delete my file , but I am thankful for having come out of the darkness so that I can help be a light for someone else. Thanks for being such a great example!

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