Sometimes God has to let your dream die so that his vision for you can come alive. -Steven Furtick (Sun Stand Still p.86)If you look at my high school year book from 1989, you will find my senior portrait including my outrageous 1980’s hair and make-up. Next to my mugshot you will see a brief paragraph that tells some highlights from my past and dreams for my future. This infamous set of sentences is something most seniors look forward to who walk through the doors of Georgetown High School. It’s a time to be known and to proclaim who we aspire to become. The ambition I wrote down was simple: To be the next Amy Grant. Music has been in bones, marrow, and blood since I can remember. Still is. And although I went to college and received my Bachelor’s Degree in Elementary Education, my soul’s desire was to sing and record music. After getting married, Chris and I spent the first 9 years of our marriage leading worship. Because I know it’s nearly impossible to break into the music industry, I truly was content do that. I wasn’t recording music but at least I was singing. But all of that died on February 19, 2002. The day that will forever be etched in my mind because of my husband’s confession of unfaithfulness. Not only did my marriage die but so did my ministry. The only ministry I had truly ever known. I was utterly stripped bare and lost my identity. I didn’t know who I was if I didn’t have a microphone in my hand.
Thankfully, I found it again when I found out who I was in Christ. As I surrendered to God’s calling and leading, He birthed a new dream in me. That new dream is what is being played out in my life today as an author. I never considered that music would just be something I love and not my passion.
Today, writing consumes my thoughts and I often find myself constructing sentences throughout the day or late into the night. I’m overcome with joy when someone tells me that my writing has blessed them. And to think I could have missed this.
I want to encourage you to seek the Father like never before. Be attentive to His voice so that when He calls you, when He leads you, when He asks you to do something you aren’t sure you can or want to do, you will be ready to listen and have a heart that is willing to obey.
Because what you think you just can’t lose right now may be the catalyst for a new vision for your life.Have you ever lost a dream and received a new one in it’s stead?