Do you ever find yourself wondering how you got to where you are now? I do.

When I allow my mind to travel back in time 25 years, I see a freshman in high school who was trying to find her way in the midst of uncertainty. I didn’t know what I wanted to do back then. And if I’d had a glimpse of where I am today, I am certain I would have laughed and thought, “Me, an author? A pastor’s wife? A women’s ministry leader? A mom who home schools her kids?”

I don’t think so.

Not because I don’t love the life I live now. I do. But back then, I don’t know that I believed in myself enough to fulfill anything of this magnitude. But a full surrender to the Creator of the Universe will change any dreams you have for your life. And you’ll begin to dream dreams that you never even thought possible. God dreams that fill your mind when you are doing the dishes or walking out in the neighborhood.

If the size of your vision for your life isn’t intimidating to you, there’s a good chance it’s insulting to God. – Steven Furtick, Sun Stand Still (p. 7)

God’s given me a front-row seat to what He’s called me to do. Some days there is nothing but overcast. I can’t make out what I’m supposed to do or say or even feel. I pray and ask for vision. Sometimes I am met with a big cumulonimbus cloud covering and other days…

Other days the view is amazing. The sky is clear and I can see for miles. I see things that he’s asking me to do and even see myself living some of them out. I hear His voice speak directly to my heart and empower me to accomplish things on His behalf.

And that bout near scares me half to death.

I have a vision, a God-inspired vision that I believe will come to pass as I live out my life in full surrender. It’s frightening and gigantic and overwhelming and mind-boggling and breathtaking and astounding and humbling.

But it’s exciting, too.

When you read Furtick’s quote above, how does it speak to you?



  1. Heidi Faith on Monday 2, 2011

    Hello,
    I just wanted to say that this particular post of yours came at just the right time for me. Because of my very recent miscarriage, my husband and I are going to start a new website, providing information and encouragement THROUGH the actual process of miscarriage. It is overwhelming, and mixed with our aching hearts, there are moments of whispered defeat. Thank you for this post. I saved the quote for my own reminder, when it’s needed.
    Please visit my online story, and see the progress of our new website (we will post the link when it’s complete):
    http://www.birthingpains.blogspot.com Thank you!

  2. Cindy Beall on Monday 2, 2011

    Heidi, I am sorry to hear about your miscarriage. I am so proud of you for offering help and healing to those who’ve traveled the same path. Bless you!

  3. Heidi Faith on Monday 2, 2011

    You don’t have to publish this comment, I just want to say that I’m crying all over again. Thank you so much Cindy. 🙂

  4. Theresa on Monday 2, 2011

    Present and Accounted For. 🙂

  5. Kai Cunningham on Monday 2, 2011

    That quote makes me think that when my thoughts and dreams that I have are not as big as God has designed, it hurts the kingdom of God. Wow! Powerful!


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