When My World Stopped

On April 6, 2009, halfway around the world in Coppito, Italy, thousands were devastated by an earthquake.  Their world stood still that day. I cleaned my house. On December 26, 2004, hundreds of thousands of lives were lost when an Indian Ocean Tsunami made its way upon land.  Their world stood still that day. I was at the mall trying to catch some after Christmas deals. On September 11, 2001, several airplanes controlled by lunatics made sure that an airport runway wasn’t their destination.  Instead, they chose buildings in New York City and Washington, D.C., and a Pennsylvania field.  Thousands of lives were forever changed.  Their world stood still that day. I was dropping off my son to Mother’s Day Out and going to a meeting at my church to plan the next several church services. The three aforementioned instances are rather disheartening.  Most of our world knows about these.  And while we were saddened by the news, most of us went about our merry way. Everyday, in the lives of normal people who are not captured on national television, random acts disrupt and devastate plenty.  It could be the loss of a family member or the news that no one wants to hear.  Whatever it is, whether great or small in the eyes of the world, it’s enough to stop your own. Learning that my Daddy had cancer on July 25, 1989.  Hearing the news that my Daddy died on March 21, 1990.  Finding out that my four cousins had died in the Jarrell, Texas tornado on May 27, 1997.  My husband’s confession of infidelity on February 19, 2002. Those were the days my world stood still. Ever had a day where it happened to you?

9 thoughts on “When My World Stopped

  1. September 11,2001 – Devastated my husband and I we saw the coverage and after a week Canadians went back on with their lives. My husband and I struggled with all the devastation and pain, it still makes us cry when we see things/read things. God has given us heart and souls for Americans. 🙂 April 15th, 2009 – My good friend 38 died of kidney cancer. Jan 2, 2011 – Another special gal in my life died of pancreas cancer. She loved God so much, she gave everything to Him. It’s hard when your world is rocked.

  2. November 11, 1991 – Finding out I was going to be a mommy..I was a senior in high school, just voted homecoming queen with a full ride scholarship waiting on me.

    March 1998 – Realizing how deep into infidelity I had sunk..so much I didn’t even recognize me.

    September 11, 2001 – My husband is in the National Guard and I knew this would profoundly affect us.

    March 25, 2006 – Finding out my mom had cancer and my husband was going to Iraq..all in the same day

    November 8, 2008 – Finding out my hubby had cheated on me and had an STD

    June 10, 2009 – My husband called from Summer Camp to tell me he was deploying again…to Afghanistan this time.

    I could go on…there are many moments that have made me stop dead in my tracks, to fight for each breath…but God has been faithful and has seen me through each trial and strengthened my character and faith. I won’t lie..I didn’t always handle each situation with grace & faith. Sometimes it was all I could do to put one foot in front of the other, but I did. I survived…even thrived. Praise God!

  3. July 6, 2011 – Finding out that Hope is legally blind. Watching my 16 year old’s reaction to dreams dying. it has changed our family’s life.

  4. july/2001- best friend loses cancer battle
    jan 20,2005- mother loses cancer
    May 13, 2010 – (2wks shy of our 16th wedding anniversary) my husband confesses he had an affair
    Today- he doesn’t serve the Lord, kids & I go to church without him. Its tough.

  5. June 16, 2010 Infidelity disclosure part 1

    August 21, 2010 part 2

    They still take my breath away if I think about it for any length of time.

    I think about this subject quite a bit too. I had to keep grocery shopping, host a Father’s Day brunch for extended family at my house, and all the other things we do on any given day, and yet no one I spoke to knew my world had just crumbled. Heck, I got the second installment the day of my son’s 5th birthday party and had to find some Visine quick to make my eyes less red, so I could put on a happy face and get through the day, complete with family pictures. (So very tough.) So now as I walk around, especially at church, I wonder who else is walking through their own personal hell on earth that day, that week, that month.

  6. So timely! I am in FL visiting my aunt and today is the 15th anniversary of my uncle’s very sudden death. She still feels the pain so deeply and I am so thankful that the Lord – in all His goodness – chose to allow our trip to be right now so that the children and I can be a source of comfort (and distraction) for her.

    I was just reading yesterday in Philippians 2 about how being united with Christ gives us compassion and tenderness toward others. Your heart is clearly united with His as this blog post tenders my heart toward those whose worlds are stopping all around me and also makes me profoundly thankful for those whose hearts were tender and compassionate toward me when my world stopped.

    Oh, and my date: September 29,2008 – the day my husband confessed multiple infidelities – otherwise known as the day my story was destined to intersect with one Cindy Beall. 😉 Thankful for how your tender, compassionate heart has ministered to mind. Love you, sister.

  7. February 13, 2012 The day from HELL! I caught my husband with my best friend going on a Vacation together to the coast. Happy Valentines day to me! It had been going on for over two years. I am still in complete devastation and completely alone and struggling. He has repented and fully confessed and wants our marriage and family to heal and move on with God’s forgiveness and grace. I am still in shock and grief and devastation. I don’t know if he can handle the depression that attacks my very soul. This “best friend” is a serial adulteress and has damaged many families in our community. I just never thought she would use the private information I confided in her to prey on my husband. She would give me advice on how to attack his character and cut him down all the while “saving” him by being sweet and understanding of his pain. She manipulated both of us as pawns in her destruction. How in the world do you forgive THAT!!! Our kids go to the same school and we live in a very small community. How can you heal when the offender is gallivanting around like she didn’t destroy a family. Both my husband and I are Christians and are leaning on God for answers and guidance. We have no Church family and few friends and I feel so isolated. This is consuming my entire being and haunting my every thought. I go to sleep thinking about it and wake up thinking about it. Will this ever end? We are both so broken. Praying to be normal or as Cindy says, find the new normal. Praying for peace from the pain.

  8. March 27 2011 my husband of 10 yrs confesses to his infidelity
    November 3 2011 my husband reveals the whole truth about his infidelity
    March 22 2012 I found out my only brother, my baby brother, only 22 yrs old takes his life

  9. @ Marti, please get some support, friends you can trust, counseling. Online stuff helps, but you probably need real persons too, wise ones who can both support and challenge you.

    For me, July 4, 2009 my husbands admits using pornography. I’m too naieve to understand the implications.
    April 2012, I begin counseling and come to realize that my 35 (yes, 35) year marriage is a sham. He’s been lying to me since I met him and trying to live this crazy double life where I guess I was supposed to be his mom/maid and the porn was his intimacy substitute. We’re in counseling together, but the pain and loss are absolutely overwhelming. I keep thinking it will let up, but it hasn’t.

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